Full-Blown Suffering: My Battle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with severe pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Sandra Fields
Sandra Fields

A seasoned entertainment journalist with over a decade of experience covering UK media and lifestyle trends.